I was just thinking of all my thanksgiving points before i start blogging. (:
yeahs my comp needed to take some time for it to load. haha
Went to meet Joy in the morning just now! had a very nice catch up with her! (:
and then headed home for lunch and sleep again..oops. don't call me pig-haha! got a headache man -.-
went to TP but then went home right away cuz the meet up was canceled. lols.

Last week was the first week of school for me.
I was in a different class as slowkia but that's okay, we're still in the same lectures! still moving slow and steady because many lab classes are canceled.yayyy muahahaa.. and i got Psychology as my CDS! this subject is what i really long to learn and discover more about ((:
hehee..and oh, the application to swap class with vivian was successful! hahaha.
mr.kok is so patient and nice to help us in this. sooo i got to go to T01 and T02 now. >.<
helped out in mentoring recruitment drive too! hahaha! me and slowkia had a goood time giving out flyers! :D no complains yarrr!

the weather's been very dry and warm now! makes me feel so sticky all the time. -.-
hooo.. air-con and water fee sure increase! hahaha! everyone take care and drink more water kayyy! ((:




*shall blog about saturday in a different post! :D

12Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

-Colossians 3:12-14




*heart after you

The Lord says: "These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. Their worship of me is made up only of rules taught by men.

-Isaiah 29:13


God reminded me of this verse in today's prayer meet. (:
gosh.
what a sad thing if we don't even have a close relationship with Jesus.
even though he is just a worship song away, how about after that?
are you just in worship for the atmosphere and songs..
or are you really really seeking Jesus today-




*come and make my heart your home

many things are running in my head and i just don't know where to start and how i should put it.. hmm..

WAIT, you may wanna read all. hahas, if it's too long just skip to read on what happened on the 19th! i wanna share on how my amazing CG tricked me into something! :D (Scroll down..)

the week has been great! (really) :D
been waking up very early to evax in TP, for the first time!
yeah it was fun as we are offering Ben & Jerry's voucher worth of 10bucks! (;
i shared before that i wanted to join to be mentors for the engineering school.. haha, guess i don't regret not joining. teehee..

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haha yehh, met jenny on 15april to catch "Run Papa Run" movie. it was just okay~
and yesss.. we kinda make a deal to get that Creative MP3 together! gahh, haven't ask my Dad yet XD
happy spiritual birthday to fiona leow(buddy!) and ying hui!
*claps + whistles* whooooo!~

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16april, guess what's the occasion? HAHAHA.
yesss it's my 5th year spiritual birthday! LOL.
evax and then went out with mian bao gang to vivo!
Initially, it was planned to give Liling a surprise as her birthday is on the 18th. haha but they did to me as well! *shocked!
treated me a movie- "Definitely, Maybe" LOL. this show's kinda complicated.. enjoyed it overall; better than "Run Papa Run" :X
thank you so much for the photo album! and yes, all the times together (:

i think that day was so busy that i almost forgot to make a wish for my spiritual bday! ;D yes, i treat birthday wishes very seriously!

So much to say, browsing through the photos taken since the past years.. i really really can't thank God enough for allllll the blessings and challenges that i've got on hands! has been another year of breakthrough; another year of pain and joy; another year of running; another year that i've hold on to God and Him alone (:

would admit that i didn't run all the way this past year, i did walk and slow down. sometimes certain things i may even feel numb already because i've heard or seen it many times. still, i choose to hold on. i choose to look to you.

ever wonder why i keep saying all the God-thing in my life(?)
because i really really need this God-thing in my life! and so is everyone..
(sounds like PS.Jeff >.< )
and He is reallll..
what shall i say to make you believe man-

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17aprilto shirley, very very sorry i didn't get to meet you on thursday! and shuh fen too!
oh yeah, heard some shocking news about my house rental thing from Mum..
Lord, i trust you will make a way out for us! i know you will be our ever providence!

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18april was chui yee's and liling's birthday! :D
evax, lunch, and then went to geck ting's house for some rest.HAHAHA. most of us fell asleep while watching Death Note show! yesss sleepy~ -.-
went to chui yess's BBQ-chalet in evening.. causing me to miss CG dinner. :((
this has always a problem, gotta be in two places at once! i know it's impossible.hoho..
(gosh, my eyes are getting tired blogging this long post)

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19th april was also Joycelyn's, Titien's, Priscilia's birthday! :D
cool huh.. many people shared this special day with me. hee..

i met up with caiman early in the morning for Mentoring! and yes, we were late again! HAHAH. oops. got a warning from Ling :X
taught those naughty boys in class.. thankfully cheng lai was helping me out! haha he's a teddy bear luhh! XD think most of the kids would wanna listen to him oneee.. for me, got pretty irritated by the fact that i can't do my job well as a mentor. those little boyyyssss..they won't listen to meeee! :(
GAH! led captain's ball game this time with caiman and cheng lai. i think it was better leh just that i forgot to include the mentors in! :( what a morning! haha.

another surprise from my fellow mentors! i was tricked! again... -.-
initially they said that we will have lunch together with the seniors, the plan was to discuss and evaluate on our performances, and also to learn more from them on how to run the mentoring sessions.
BUT, another cake came! *shocked- :O (really)
but that cake was also meant for Ling luh, her bday was only on the 18th. (:
another cake = can make another 3 different wishes! HAHAHA.
ehh but thank youuuu! i'm very touched! ((:


chiong to write cards for mabel alone at orchard emerald.
hooo.. i think most of the auntie-cleaners there are lonely people. :(
can see from their faces, and when they clear up you can hear the clink-clank-bang! of the utensils and stuffs. luckily i was not chased out as i didn't get anything. heheh.


I was superrrr happy to see East B & C there!
get to know a number of new people too.
haha they lighted 18 sparkles for me! and the cake- dawn's empty yoghurt cup! LOL.
thank you wendy for praying for me! & DHS is growinggggg..*claps!
for all of the affirmations and prezzies, really thank youuu! :D
certain things that you shared made me goes; "huhh i was like that?" haha.
it was really God and the people in the church that molded me to be who i am today!(:


Met my CG in nexus. hmmm felt kinda weird, something amiss.
i was really confused and fearful man. what happened!?
saw shirley looked very downcasted. and shuh fen kept saying "i am very angry you know.." huhhhh..
ok went to service, geck whispered to me: shirley overslept and was an hour late in meeting the care group. well and shuh fen is very angry about it. hmmm man! how can this thing be happening ahh.. it's just a minor thing i thought.
it made me praying for the whole service.

talked to shuh fen in the toilet. lol.
you know, when this kind of thing happen.. i want people to reconcile. so ok, we went to 2nd level of le meridian to talk. hey, i really share my heart out and try to get them together. shuh fen doesn't say a thing or even apologise; shirley looked sad and her eyes were teary. gah. i'm caught in the middle.

mag called us down, so we kinda left the issue dangling. -.-
*shocked! (yet again!)
"lestari ah, lestari..
omo ah, omo.."
HAHAHAHA :D
yes another surprise! oh man.. they got me 18 donuts for my 18th year!
another donut = can make another 3 different wishes! HAHAHA
i'm so gonna get _ _ _. now still left with 7 of it at my house. lols.
thank you all for praying for me!
thank you for the book! it made me go WOAAAHHH.. :D
my ever first birthday celebrated in tertiary! uh huh (:

AND ANDDDDD...
the whole quarrel and cold war between shuh fen and shirley was allllll FAKE!
gahhhh. got me feeling so dumb and tricked! -.-
and i went: "bu hao xiao lor!"
(copying geck's all time favourite phrase)

i think i broke the record in saying the most THANK YOU in my life today!
i thought it's just a birthday, just my date of birth what..
haha.
but it is the day God brought me to life.
and the life is his and his alone.
for me to live with the purpose given.
nothing beats about that.
yes! :D

thank you all for making my day GREAT!
thank you for all the affirmations and prezzies!
thank you for the whole drama thing!
this goes a long way, and i'll surely remember it! (:
thank you God for you alone that keeps me going!:D


9 Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their work:

10 If one falls down,
his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls
and has no one to help him up!
-Ecclesiastes 4:9-10




*i will live a child in awe of You

Praying For Time - Carrie Underwood

These are the days of the open hand
They will not be the last, look around now
These are the days of the beggars and the choosers

This is the year of the hungry man
Whose place is in the past
Hand in hand with ignorance and legitimate excuses

The rich declare themselves poor
And most of us are not sure
If we have too much, but we'll take our chances
Cause god's stopped keeping score

I guess somewhere along the way
He must have let us alt out to play
Turned his back, and all god's children
Crept out the back door

And it's hard to love, there's so much to hate
Hanging on to hope when there is no hope to speak of
And the wounded skies above say it's much too late
Well, maybe we should all be praying for time

These are the days of the empty hand
Oh, you hold on to what you can
And charity is a coat you wear twice a year

This is the year of the guilty man
Your television takes a stand
And you find that what was over there is over here

So you scream from behind your door
Say what's mine is mine and not yours
I may have too much, but I'll take my chances
Cause god's stopped keeping score

And you cling to the things they sold you
Did you cover your eyes when they told you
That he can't come back
Cause he has no children to come back for

It's hard to love, there's so much to hate
Hanging on to hope when there is no hope to speak of
And the wounded skies above say it's much too late
So maybe we should all be praying for time

Just put down the phone with slowkia not too long ago.. broke the record of talking on the phone for 1hour++ -GOSH- it's been a long time since i last talked so long on the phone i think.

We were contemplating on whether we should go for the orientation camp; to be mentors. heee..i really wanna go! not for my own accord like make myself known to more people in the school.. but to get to know people! think as i'm approaching year 2 in poly (as well as being in poly ministry) there is so much more to discover on how to relate to different people in my age etc. That means beyond my scope and my circle of friends as well.

oh well.. still contemplating. wanna go help out also because i think it's fun! hahaha. lifetime experience eh..cuz it's impossible to be a mentor in year 3!
AND engine are in short of mentors as well! (heard despite having 100 over mentors already) whooo..guess there's really alot alot of intake!
which means there's so many souls out there!! :D
you get me..
behind every name, there is a face
behind every face, there is a person
behind every person, there is a soul
searching for the true purpose in life.



getting to know people, really takes alot of effort and time.
I think i shall reduce the number of time spent on blog-hopping; seriously! :X
i don't wanna be a friend that knows you just by reading your posts.. what you rant on ya blog, what you blog about your days, or what you feel on certain things you face in life.
Besides i think there is more to what everyone blog about; people long to be heard.
I hope i can be the one whom you can talk to (:
and one key factor that keeps a relationship going and growing is through communication! the pathway to discovering and understanding one another. it's a two-way thing! (:
honestly, i am fearful! but i wanna try too! XD

Psalm 30:2
O LORD my God, I called to you for help and you healed me.




*call upon the Name of the Lord and be saved

Went to Planet Shakers + Tim Hughes concert on (Friday 11/04/08)! :D
it was a memorable day for me! met the rest at 1pm at Expo! which means we were the First in the queue man! how cool is that.. think i never have done that ever in my life. HAHAHA. then we started playing this games taught by Dennis.hehee.. (: the forfeit was to drink water! >.<

Think the concert is pretty much the same. but i was very happy when they sang the song MAJESTY! it's really a grand song ya know..! (:

Rising
I feel my heart sing
Praises our Lord and King
The wonder, the majesty
Welcome the King of Glory in

Every tribe and tongue
Every land will sing Your praise
To the end of time we sing
Majesty

All majesty
To the God of creation
All majesty
God of all generations
This anthem we sing
To the God of all nations
All majesty
We sing

whooooo.. :D

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My first time leading games in JunYuan Primary today (12/04/08 Sat)!
Been pending until this saturday that we resume to mentor the school.
was teaching 2 malay boys.. so cute but talkative ahh!
during games, it's already so difficult to settle the kids down.
managed to introduce them how to play that ma2tong3 game! it was chaos. lols, in the end i don't know if the kids are playing it with integrity or not. hmm -.- but i know isabel is *claps. HAHA (:
followed by playing Dodge ball!
this was much better than ma tong game. lol.

GAHHH.. so here it is the start of another journey to brainstorm for games tog with Delphina now! and perhaps sab n caiman will help along too..yayy-
gotta learn to speak louder too! :XX

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went to CCHM for their Bazaar day!
really crowded but i think it's fun to be involved ya know.. set up your own stalls with your classmates, and you'll go " come come, please buy something from our stall..." or " we got offer..come come.." etc. HAHAHA.
reminisce the times in chaichee. XD

met a number of people there! and Mabel too! yayyy :D

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just random. i accidentally poured some water into my glass and it there were a few ants!! geee.. was attacked by ants twice before! okay, i didn't drank it (thankfully) but i was just observing what will happen to the ants that were on the water. HAHAHAHA.. 3 of them finally saved themselves and managed to climb up and out of my cup. how cool huh.. (:

hehee okayyy.. this is super random. but i just feel like blogging it down. lol.
and ants are really diligent insects yooo.. x)




*pure heart

my favourite song at the moment!
nice ehh. make you feel happy(?)
hahahm though she says that i'm not gonna write you a love song
:D




*clear my mind

okayyy new skin! :D
hahaa.. i'm glad i found a green colour bacground & especially the picture of the sun! lols cuz i love the sky! be it sun, clouds, stars!hahaaa.. <3
:D
all content remains the same though!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUWEN!
:D
dear classmate who is very very helpful!
hahaa hope you enjoyed the Bombers &
have a great year!

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alright.. had CG today at Joseph's house!
hahaa, really thank God for him and his Mum to open up their house for our CG venue; can be our "RC". (;
we started pretty late, abt 7plus.. & honestly, i dunno whyyy was so nervous to lead worship! gosh, thankfully i never experience numbness or headache again!(like the other time in camp.lol)

just my prayer;
God, may you cover my eyes with your spiritual lenses! though i already have 2 extra lenses on me.. but yours is more than what i need! (:
wanna be slow to speak and quick to love.hahaa
amen!




*LOVE cast out all fears

C.S Lewis Song - Brooke Fraser

If I find in myself
Desires nothing in this world can satisfy
I can only conclude
That I, I was not made for here

If the flesh that I fight
Is at best only light and momentary
Then of course, I'll feel nude
When to where I'm destined I'm compared

[Chorus]
Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the mornin'
I will sigh and with all creation groan
As I wait for hope to come for me

Am I lost or just less found
On the straight or on the roundabout of the wrong way
Is this a soul that stirs in me
Is it breaking free, wanting to come alive

'Cos my comfort would prefer for me to be numb
And avoid the impending birth of who I was born to become

[Chorus]

For we
We are not long here
Our time is but a breath
So we better breathe it
And I
I was made to live
I was made to love
I was made to know you

Hope
Is comin' for me
Hope
Is comin' for me
Hope
Is comin' for me
Hope
He's comin'

[Chorus]



heard this song quite a long time ago.. until i really get what the lyrics mean. very nice and interesting. i think the drums played have nice beat (:




* 2 more weeks to start of school! >.<

Have Courage in His promises in the presence of fear


again. reminded me of this..
c'mon; take Courage!

which one is bigger..
His Love and Promises or the Fear?

gahh. know it's easier said that done..but just a little faith will do (:

April Fool's Day was spent with my dear new sheep ELICIA TAN SHUH FEN!! hahah. will sure remember some crappy fools that i got -.-

made me recall when i was sec2 or 3.. one of my senior fooled me saying that my super strict discipline mistress wanna have a serious meeting for the prefects.. he say say say and in the end mentioned that it will be at airport. LOL. okayyy nto funny-- HAHA but i'll remember that! :X

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First formal CG at Joseph's house on Wed! :D
and then off to watch Step Up 2.
HAHAHA
i can't dance.




*lalala

ARETE CAMP on 28-30 MARCH!! :D
marked my First ever camp in tertiary now.hehee..
it was at Golden Mile! anyone been there before? hahaa personally, it was my first! and i shall not forget that place because me and shuh fen were so lost!and we took quite some time to get there.grrr.. furthermore, that's the only place where my "brother's" Wanted-poster is written in Thai!! HAHAHA :X

Okay now, sorry.. don't think i'll be blogging all of my personal learning points as it will be very long (?) hahah and some readers might not get it.. so if you wanna find out, can ask me about it! yeaaa :D

just one story that i wanna share. XD on the Parable of the Sower in Mark 4

this sower was scattering the seed, and all fell on many different grounds. Some along the path, some on rocky places, some among thorns.. and yet some do fell on good soil. (: and it goes
"20 Others, like seed sown on good soil, hear the word, accept it, and produce a crop—thirty, sixty or even a hundred times what was sown."
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link also to the parable of the mustard seed; that even thought it's small but
"32 Yet when planted, it grows and becomes the largest of all garden plants, with such big branches that the birds of the air can perch in its shade."
hahaha. so cool right.. i really want to be that seed! which will fall on good soil. i wanna stick close to Christ; grow and be a blessing in wherever i go!yay..
as now is the time for more pruning and polishing by You (:

yupp..think this camp is very memorable and refreshing! haha, really had a great time with everyone there! GAH, and yes my CG started with the tuu-tuu-train thing!*claps (but i scared :X) hahaha!

photos please go to Priscilla's blog! i cant post it up here..anyway she owns the camera! XD



*blessed